David Goggins, just trust me on this one!

With the exception of Harry Potter and a few other series; His Dark Material, The Lord of the Rings, A Song of Ice and Fire... (I'm realizing as I'm typing this that I must have a thing for the fantasy world 🦄🤷), I am NOT what one would consider a reader. In fact, I'm sure someone can quote me as saying that I hate it.

This year has been rough, to say the least. I was talking to my sister, Marika, sometime in the late summer. Her and I are so different, so typically when we offer advice to one another, it's not exactly what either of us are looking for. But this time was different. Anytime the boys were asleep for the night, I was alone. And when I was alone, I felt sad, desperate, and obviously lonely. I needed some sort of comfort, something else in my life to focus on besides worrying about my boys, besides dwelling on my divorce. This time when Marika suggested a couple books to read, books that had really helped someone she knew, through a tough time. The strangest thing happened... I was excited. One of them she had that I could borrow, but I didn't want to wait. The next day I was at Barnes & Noble, buying two of her suggestions to start with. They were 13 Things Mentally Strong People Don't Do by Amy Morin and Let Go Now by Karen Casey. I can say, that both of these books changed the way I looked at things. Thoughts and views, being hardheaded, and stubborn; these things seemed to soften a bit. Which for me, even a slight change was monumental. I started doing yoga (another thing that literally EVERYONE should try). My life began to change. I began to change. Change for the better, more peaceful, more hopeful than I may have ever been. Was I still sad about things in my life, hell yes. But now I was hopeful. And being hopeful is exciting. Those books lit that fire.

I listen to Joe Rogan's podcast religiously. The Joe Rogan Experience. If I'm at the gym, out for a run, cleaning the apartment, I'm listening to his podcast. On December 2, he posted a picture of a book cover with the caption, "This book will change your fucking life. It's time to go to war with yourself." That hit me. Hard. It's time to go to war with yourself. That was spot on. I had been fighting who I was, who I wanted to become, and so many other things, I knew I had to read it. Can't Hurt Me by David Goggins. I picked it up and couldn't put it down. I even downloaded the audio book so that I didn't have to go through any withdrawals 🤣 

Hitting rock bottom and then digging a little deeper yet, opened me up to suggestions from my family. Those suggestions opened me up into actually reading something not from a fantasy world 🤔 And those books opened me up to reading this book. This book... 

courtesy of https://davidgoggins.com/book/

Since finishing it, I've read it again. I'm 36 and I'm finally gaining the confidence to do something I've always wanted to do. Be me. Only me. Not what people want me to be or think I am. ME! I've had a business idea, that I've basically had all planned in it's entirety  for years (like 10), and never pulled the trigger on it. I was never confident in it. I was too afraid what other people would think, what if I failed, what would people think of me?Well, I pulled that trigger. Because now, I know that the only thing standing in the way of me and my happiness and success, was me.

Seriously, check out this book. It will, as Joe Rogan says, "change your fucking life."

And to quote one of my favs...

"I didn't always know what I wanted to do, but I knew the kind of woman I wanted to be." - Diane Von Furstenberg